i was always skeptical when it comes to my feeling
especially those that involve the feeling of others.
i am the type of guy that goes "no sire i don't believe in forever" and no "miss obviously there is no such thing as real love, all there is, only one night stand and a no string attached.". i believe in keeping myself safe, building such walls so that i won't fall into the same trap. the one that got me loving someone so much and end up getting "i never had any feeling towards you, to be honest.".
bullshit.
then i met you.
4 months ago, if you tell me to write something like this, i will reject, refuse and deny. this is crap, this is bullshit. i don't believe in all these touchy wouchy feeling as i know sooner or later it gonna get me back, biting my ass as an aftermath of being so in love. but it's different now.
you are just simply amazing. i seriously can't properly describe you in words.
you're cute,
you're thoughtful,
you're addictive,
you're the reason i smile everyday and of course frowns with jealousy from time to time.
how mushy. of course.
you changed me a lot. like a lot lot. making me do all the things i never done and i am not regretting any part of it. making yourself being so valuable. i believe i had never fall for someone this deep that i would go for the extra mile to make you happy.
i never actually drive miles for someone just to be next to them
i never care bout what other wants before. it was always about me
i never like talking on the phone, at all!
i never be so vulnerable
i never miss someone so much like i miss you even when me meet like alternate days
i never get so insecure like i did
i never enjoy a day without you
i am smitten.
you are amazing and awesome.
i can never meet someone like you.
my friends told me, you're lucky and must be one hell of a person to make a commitmentphobic to be so committed to someone. but i think. i am lucky to ever found you. you are after all the best thing that ever happened to me.
my lucky star, my singing satellite.
i love you
so much
that it scares me
but at the same time
it made me feel safe.
this is shen.
and okayyyyyyyyyyyyyy this is too mushy
*coughs* believe?
