the best thing that ever happened

i was always skeptical when it comes to my feeling

especially those that involve the feeling of others.

i am the type of guy that goes "no sire i don't believe in forever" and no "miss obviously there is no such thing as real love, all there is, only one night stand and a no string attached.". i believe in keeping myself safe, building such walls so that i won't fall into the same trap. the one that got me loving someone so much and end up getting "i never had any feeling towards you, to be honest.".

bullshit.

then i met you.

4 months ago, if you tell me to write something like this, i will reject, refuse and deny. this is crap, this is bullshit. i don't believe in all these touchy wouchy feeling as i know sooner or later it gonna get me back, biting my ass as an aftermath of being so in love. but it's different now.

you are just simply amazing. i seriously can't properly describe you in words.

you're cute,

you're thoughtful,

you're addictive,

you're the reason i smile everyday and of course frowns with jealousy from time to time.

how mushy. of course.

you changed me a lot. like a lot lot. making me do all the things i never done and i am not regretting any part of it. making yourself being so valuable. i believe i had never fall for someone this deep that i would go for the extra mile to make you happy.

i never actually drive miles for someone just to be next to them

i never care bout what other wants before. it was always about me

i never like talking on the phone, at all!

i never be so vulnerable

i never miss someone so much like i miss you even when me meet like alternate days

i never get so insecure like i did

i never enjoy a day without you

i am smitten.

you are amazing and awesome.

i can never meet someone like you.

my friends told me, you're lucky and must be one hell of a person to make a commitmentphobic to be so committed to someone. but i think. i am lucky to ever found you. you are after all the best thing that ever happened to me.

my lucky star, my singing satellite.

i love you

so much

that it scares me

but at the same time

it made me feel safe.

this is shen.
and okayyyyyyyyyyyyyy this is too mushy
*coughs* believe?