how to react

my best friend when i was in segamat mother just passed away a few days back.
i am dating a person that lost both parents

i always wonder. how would i react if i lose these important people in my life.
would i cry
would i stand tall
would i just sit there with expressionless face
would i just go through my day like i used to.

lately i have been building these walls. the walls to keep me from being emotionally offended, emotionally attacked and emotionally let down. little did i know a small lion can penetrate the wall so well without destroying the wall and result them in crumbling down.

i won't say i am much of a good son.
but i wouldn't deny if someone told me im a daddy's boy and a mommy's son. i just dont mind. but then again as much as i hate to admit this, sometimes i never actually care about what my parents think. maybe my rebellious act has finally kicked in. finally. maybe

so i am just wondering. let just say one day.
god forbid.
if these ever happen to me. how would i react?
or how should i react?

on an unrelated case

i am totally into you

giving my all to you

despite the fact that you 

are not entirely mine.

 this is shen.
and my falls is..